Quinn thinks she’s defending her immaculate image by kicking her grandmother out of her expensive wedding over a bizarre present. But loss reveals painful truths, and what she finds in a ragged bag of walnuts will break her in ways she never expected. Grandma Rose’s place was where I grew up more than mine.
Laurie and Travis, my parents, were always pushing for money and status. Grandma’s cottage on the outside of town had a squeaky porch, lavender doilies, and creaky flooring. I felt at home.
Grandma Rose braided my unruly hair before school, humming quietly. Though never tight or perfect, her braids seemed special, like she had braided love into them. I sat cross-legged by her rocking chair as she drank tea and read the newspaper.
She avoided sad or scary stories and told amusing ones. Her warm, bubbling laugh usually came early, making me chuckle even if I didn’t comprehend the humor. She made basic dishes every night.
Simple, substantial food—mashed potatoes with black pepper, crisp green beans with butter, and scrambled eggs with sausages that tasted better than high-end restaurant food. She never followed a recipe; she knew what worked. “These meals fill you up right, my Quinn,” she said, setting a dish in front of me.
She sat next to me on the couch with a dish of walnuts every night before bed. Cracked and clean, they were neatly divided. She never made me lift a finger.
“Eat these, darling,” she said, putting them into my hands. “They’ll strengthen your heart.”
She spoke, and I stared at her with a raised eyebrow one night. Gran, strong how?
I asked. She said, “In the ways that count, sweet girl,” touching her chest over her heart. «The ways doctors can’t measure»
Born with a cardiac problem.
At seven, I had multiple procedures. Hospital beds were more familiar than my pink and white bedroom for years. I pulled my shirts up higher than other girls because of a thick, pale scar along my chest.
Grandma Rose never made me feel weak. I felt complete with her. She was my refuge and warmth then.
Only Grandma Rose was consistent in my life. But changes occurred. As I got older, life sped up, or I stopped enjoying calm moments.
Always wanting more, my parents presented me with wealth like a gift. Designer clothes, ski holidays, private school tuition, and Italian summers filled my world. I suddenly stopped wanting simple dinners and pleasant nights.
The smell of lavender and Grandma Rose’s singing were forgotten. I told myself I was maturing. Grandma’s house became antiquated slowly.
I knew it was me who had changed, not the home, yet it felt colder. I imagined it as musty and worn. Charm I once liked became mocked.
My visits became rare, and I spent half the time on my phone monitoring the clock. I wrinkled my nose when I entered without saying hello. Though I wasn’t proud, that’s who I became.
“It smells old in here,” I said, throwing my jacket over her chair. Grandma Rose smiled politely from her crossword. “That’s just lavender, honey,” she said.
“You loved it, Quinn.”
Thinking about that makes me cringe. I didn’t reply. Just opened a window.
She still called me weekly, as usual. She never seemed disturbed by my half-hearted comments, which I often made while browsing with my earplugs. She always asked if I was eating, sleeping, and taking my cardiac meds in a loving voice.
Every call ended similarly. “Be kind, darling,” she said. “The world’s tough enough.”
I never replied.
She didn’t know I loved or missed her. My excuse was being busy. Landon and I engaged at 22.
He was wealthy and handsome. His family had Napa restaurants and vineyards. He drove a silver Audi, wore cufflinks to breakfast, and owned a watch worth Grandma Rose’s house.
Naturally, the wedding was lavish. We hosted 500 people at a beautiful waterfront setting. I had three stunning outfits, a celebrity chef’s cuisine, and a floral arch taller than the bridal party.
Everyone was important—a CEO, designer, or notable person. Grandma Rose wasn’t invited. “She raised you,” my mom replied, crying.
“Please, Quinn. Invite her. For me, honey.”
“Mom, she won’t know anyone.
Except you, Dad, and a few relatives who made it. Gran will feel awkward,” I sighed. My mom assured me, “She’ll come for you, Quinn.” “She’ll see you glowing and happy, and that’s all she wants.”
Unfortunately, I added Grandma Rose to the list.
Wedding guests wore elegant gowns and stylish tuxedos. Landon looked magazine-worthy. Fountain string quartet.
Everything screamed luxury. Next came Grandma Rose. She seemed to pass through time for a second.
She strolled carefully in her faded but nicely pressed vintage clothes. A basic clip held her hair back, her shoes didn’t match, and she carried a torn cloth bag with frayed corners and a zipper stain. I tried not to greet her, but she looked at me.
“My Quinn,” she whispered, smiling. “I brought something. Open soon, please.
My present. Love, there’s a surprise inside.”
She gave me the bag. I looked in.
Walnuts. Dusty, cracked, dry walnuts. My face burned with shame.
“You kidding me? My voice was low yet piercing as I snarled. I received a bag of unclean walnuts.
To my wedding? ”
“They’re special,” she replied, blinking gently to hold back tears. But I couldn’t stop talking.
Gma, this bag is filthy. This shames me! ”
I and she both glanced away for the first time.
Voice broke. Not sure if it was wedding stress, guilt, or the realization I’d crossed a boundary I couldn’t undo. The beautiful, flowing melody continued, but time seemed to be holding its breath.
I could feel the looks and unease ripple across the welcome tent. “Babe,” Landon murmured, walking beside me. “Just take the gift.”
Shaking my head.
Landon, you can’t simply show up with crap, I remarked, my voice low and harsh. After expressing my love for you, Gran, this was not acceptable. Grandma Rose ignored me.
“Just go,” I whispered. Not arguing. She stood still, bracing herself against the table.
Her gaze evaded me. She nodded barely, then turned and walked away slowly, as if she didn’t want to make a sound. No one stopped her.
No one spoke. Like the air closed around her, bearing her absence before she left the room. My mother covered her mouth, crying.
She started moving, but I turned aside. I cared not. I told myself I didn’t.
Grandma Rose called two days later. My phone flashed up with her name, and I stared at it, chest tight, but I let it ring. Unable to face her.
She called again evening. “Grandma, I’m busy. Can we talk later?
I said. “I just wanted to know if you opened my gift, Quinn,” she added. “Not yet, okay?
Getting to it soon. Please stop bothering me with petty things. Gran, I know walnut taste.
If you open them now or tomorrow, nothing will change.”
“Of course, darling,” she answered after a long pause. “Sorry to bother you.”
She never called back. Two months later, my phone rang with my mom’s name when I was getting ready for Landon’s photo shoot.
I replied on speaker while brushing my hair. “I’m busy, mom,” I said. “Can we wait?
My shoot is coming up, and you know how photographers are if you’re late.”
“Quinn,” my mom murmured, voiceless. Grandma Rose is gone. “What?
You mean what? Where’s gone? Sinking into a chair, I inquired.
“Sweetheart, her heart failed.”
I stood by her casket during funeral. Her folded hands indicated she was waiting. The hue of her nails was soft pink, her favorite.
There was a slight lavender aroma around. It smelled homey. My trembling persisted.
Her laughter in the corridor, her soothing humming in the kitchen, and the way she’d clean my face with a warm cloth after I stuffed it with walnuts and banana bread all came back. I remembered her cleaning my hands with the flowered handkerchief in her sleeve or pocket. This laundry softener and starch scented cloth smelled like love.
I broke down at the funeral. My knees buckled, but someone held me before I fell. I was gasping from crying.
Later that night, I drove. I should have stayed with my folks. Landon should have driven me.
However, I needed to move to escape the guilt ripping at my chest. Tears blurred headlights. “I just need to get home,” I said.
“I need the bag. I must open those walnuts.”
I never arrived. Car swerved.
The accident was abrupt. Everything turned black. Two days later, I woke up in the hospital with aching ribs, bandages on my legs, and tubes in both arms.
My face was heated and swollen. Landon appeared pale and anxious. My throat was dry and hard when I tried to speak.
“Quinn? ” He said, drawing closer. You’re awake.
